RUNNING TO BE WITH YOU.

I felt for you too late.Although you are a major subject of study in religion,philosophy, and science, but defining you in a manner applicable to all fields without circularity has consistently eluded scholars.You are a good teacher too. You taught me demeanor,fashion of living, loving,caring and what so ever i have been awarded in my life.You are the one which made me to realize the love for my family.

In my childhood, i thought everyone is my family and everyone loves me as my teachers said,"All indians are my brothers ans sisters." but only some of them are still my friends and ultimately family is there for me.

Now up to some extent i came to know the reality of life.

Actually what do i think,what is important for me,my life is only YOU.Previously i wasted so much time in managing my relation,which never worked so far neither i do get the same as i gave in relation.

Although i am a big lover of almighty .I though if love god he will never let me be in storm, so i ignored your importance.

But now i can see the verity of life.I am running for you but unable to reach to you.

Working day and night doesn't refer to restoration of everything whatever i have lost in past.It never occurred naturally.i forced myself to lose many opportunities.

• I remember the day,when i completed my 12th and opted to do engineering (but unaware of the selection process,believed someone will help me out). Rejected in IIT-JEE entrance but simultaneously got 24500 rank in AIEEE. But i thought i will not be able to get to admission in any of the good college because for me it was a large number. I asked one of my relative(that he was supposed to be knowing all these entrance examination process in my family) about admission through this rank.He said,"how did u think think like that?? you won't be able get admission even in  worst college of INDIA".And i was too shy to discuss this with my friends or teachers.I thought if he has said he can't be wrong and i believe him. SO, i lost the opportunity of getting a good college.I prepared again and get a college below average,bit till then i had come to know what game he(the person who suggested me that i am not eligible for any college) had played with me. But then i was not in favor of getting admitted in that college( a college of GR. Noida),but my family forced me to join the college. I never worked to get good score as that college was not of my choice.I know it was a big foolishness of mine.I performed average. But now i do feel my fault. I never recognized your importance for my future. You again taught me "EGO IS SOMETHING BUT NOT EVERYTHING, GRAB WHAT(knowledge) YOU GET. DOESN'T MATTER WHO GIVES YOU."
• As time passes COLORS OF LIFE GETS VISIBLE TO YOU.Throughout my life as far as possible i helped everyone who asked but at last when i needed them i filtered some people who helped or some who denied. Again you taught me a new lesson "NEVER EXPECT IN RETURN."
• It is the time when i am running to catch you,running to walk with you but you have have left.I don't know till when i will have to run for you but this time i will work rather than believing others.I believe in almighty. Surely everyone can leave ,but not he.

KYUNNNN......????

Kuch khayaal mann me baar-baar umadte hain.Kuch baaten hoti hain jise hum dil me daba to lete hain par apne khayaalon se bahar karne me asafal rahte hain,or na hum unka jawaab dundh pate hain.

Jindagi me har ki koi na koi chahat hoti hai jaise:-businessman banke khoob paise kamana,desh ki sewa karna,naam kamana,filmstar banna...wagarah-wagarah.Jinki chahat sacchi hoti hai,jinke sapno me udaan hoti hai,junoon hota hai,wo apne gantawya ko hasil karne ke liye kuch bhi kar gujarte hai,unhe apni mazil ke siwa apni bhi sudh nahi hoti,or wo jeet bhi ajte hai,lekin khud ko sayad kahin kho dete hain,jahan se wapas aane me kafi kathinae hoti hai.

lekin me hamesha is natize par aakar ruk jati hu ki aakhir ek din to sabke jiwaan me aisa aaega hi jis din unhe is duniya se vida lena hoga,toh phir jarurt se jyada paise hasil karne me,apna naam kamane me or dusro ko jalane me log apni puri jindagi ki urza kyun barbaad karte hai.....???

AAKHIR KYUN KARTE HAIN LOG AISA.......?

Kuch aisa kyun nahi karte jisse sabki bhale ho,jo karne se kisi ki jarurt puri ho.or haan,hum kabhi-kabhi ye bhi sochte hain ki "agar hum ye karenge to hamare desh ki bhalae hogi".

me puchti hu,Aisa kaisa bhala, jo ki dharti ki kuch laqueeron tak he seemit hai,kya uus laqueer ke aage rahne wale log inssan nahi hain ya insani nasll ke nahi hain.....????

In baaton ki uljhan ek or sawal ko samne pados gae...."hum naam kyun kamana chahte hain...???".kya apni imaandaar nazar kafi nahi hoti khud ko asli khushi dene ke liye...?aakhir hume kyun chaiye hota hai dusron ka nazariya,jo ki hamare prati hai?

Me puchna chahungi,kya ye sach nahi ki dusre ki soch ke bare me janne ki kosish karte karte hum khud ko unki he soch ki tarah bana lete hain or apne asli astitwa ko hamesha ke liye khatm kar dete hain....?

kab khulegi hamari aaankhen,jb hum khud ko khud ki he aankhon se dekhenge or sabko na sirf  apna manenge,balki es apnepan ke riste ko nibhayenge bhi.....???

AAKHIR KAB HOGA YE SAAB....???????